Hot and Cold

HOT: the peak of everything... when there is like no tomorrow...

COLD: the sad truth... nothing but all chilled... and down... to negative zero...

I wish I could turn back the time... in which we can be just at the warm temperature...

Start of Something New

Life is roller coaster, for it has a beginning and the end... In facing it,you must wear your seat belts and observe safety measures so that you will then fully enjoy your life.

But then, it's all about twist and turn... it has its own climax, the peak of where everything will eventually roll over and go down... so as my life, where I haven't gone into my peak, I already shouted stop at the peak of nowhere .. where I found myself upside down, looking at the sky and seeing nothing but just a clear blue and white shades of the clouds.

I guess, not everything that you see is true, not everything that you feel are all but joy and love. Like a roller coaster, I sat down and enjoy, but too afraid to see it fall.. and so when it happened I wasn't ready to take the impact of it. Wishing I could have picked the slow one...the one that has no loops and big turns, where i'll remain stable and enjoy the plain view of life... no twist and turns, no fast tracks, no hanging upside-down.

Life is a Journey, a one way ticket ride... You may buy a ticket over and over again.. but it will never be the same train and the same passengers you'll meet in every trip you take.

New Year, New Beginning

If someone says, that "the only constant thing in this world is change", I can say that they are right. For some reason that only few man accepts it within themselves and very rare that you see a man changed not because of love.

Nakakatuwang isipin na sa panahon ngayon, Kahit mahirap, bumaba man o tumaas ang presyo ng gasolina... Some other people do still see good things within it, though yung iba they just can't help na ipagtanggol ang karapatan nila, in where they know it is the only way to change what is already happening in our country. Ano pa ba ang babaguhin sa isang bagay na nabago na? I guess, it is much proper to say na lang na... "let's just learn from our mistakes, and make a better one". Parang cellphones, there are nontheless I think hundreds of it that are manufactured every now and then and us? we keep on buying those things kahit alam na natin na isa or dalawa lang na features ang dinagdag compare sa luma mong ginagamit na phone diba? or others may see it as a symbol of their social class, kung dati mas maliit mas sosyal at mahal... ngayon, mas malaki mas mahal na and mas in!. Oh diba, eh ang hindi na lang ata nagbabago ay yung itsura ng mag constalation sa langit, lalo na ang napaka sikat na "big dipper". (sa mga nagtatanong kung ano ang english ng tabo?...better think again and this time, look up ^_^)

Speaking of constalation, uuuyyyy can't help na tignan ang horoscope for this year?!, hahaha it is but normal for some of us to check on what's in this years forecast or hidden treasure for some zodiac concious people, but do always bare in mind that "life is all about choice" and "destiny don't stay last or forever"... dahil tama c Edward sa twilight "even you get to see your future, it is still uncertain to come", kaya nga may word na decision kasi we have the freedom to decide for our future, siyempre nandun ka na .. nakita mo na, the next thing you do is know how did you come to that point? or sometimes when one is very fortunate enough to see it, he tends to get lost or for some reasons.. they die young and loose hopes because they know its comming.

For some reason change is a bit harsh, but for me, my year had a good start... although not that good but at least I can say that I do still have my family and though the bond is not anymore that tight... I'm still holding on to my faith and gradually address myself to a major turning point of my life... about love, relationship, family and the like.

No one is perfect, thou practice makes perfect..still there is what we call change and is inevitable, so let it just pass through..on its own way somehow, change can do something really good. As another new year starts, let us not claim all the bad luck that we knew and written in our horoscope... just remember, if you know who you are and what you are really made of... new things and a big change won't be that bad as you think it is.

Have a life full of love this New year... Remember! "today is a gift, that is why it's called present"

Last Day

Haiz.. last day na namin magkasama ng mahal ko and I'm off to work na bukas... nakakalungkot man isipin .. pero ganun talaga eh.. we have to do this for ourselves and for our future na rin... Ang pagmamahal, kapag hindi mo nilagyan ng kahulugan, madaling mawala lang na parang bula, kaya naman ang daming hindi nagtatagal na relasyon diyan, paano... hindi man lng nila binibigyan ng effort ang kung ano ang meron sila.

Kapag nagmahal ka, sa una akala mo wala lang... pakiramdam mo ang buhay mo sa araw araw ay pareho lng nung wala at meron kang boyfriend... but as things grow and as u move on with ur life eh hindi mo napapansin na habang tumtagal, lumalalim ang pagsasama ninyo, but that doesn't mean na kilala nio na ang isa't isa.. it just like standing on a wet cement.. the feeling are stagnant and parang walang pagbabago since you've stepped in sa wet cemment na un, but unknowingly lumalalim na pala ito at tumitibay and the next thing you know is that your stuck in it and kahit anong gawin mong kawala.. ang hirap ng umalis... 'coz uve stayed long enough for the wet cement to hold you down and steady.... Nakakatuwa on one part na sa panahon ngayon there is still u can say "Not perfect, but just right"... parang si Mark... he's not perfect, not even close to that but when I'm with him, parang there is magic na parang lahat tama and at the end of the day that I even question myself kung bakit siya? I just now simply smile and say... "kasi nga mahal ko siya.. kaya ganun".

Going 4 yrs na kami, 2009 ang target namin to get marry ... this work (hopefylly) ay makakapag bigay linaw kung magiging maganda ba ang pasok ng 2009 sa aming 2. For 2008 has not been that good to us for lots of troubles we've been gone through... but then still together we have surpass it all... and I'm happy to say that we're pushing to 4 yrs on 2009 and going steady for that year...

Ngayon ang huling araw na kami ay magkakasama sa araw-araw at bukas ang simula ng panibagong buhay para sa kanya, para sa amin... lalo na para sa akin... eto na un! the moment we've been waiting for... ^_6 I just hope i'll do good at this time and I wish to make it through day by day without him by my side... I'll be missing him for sure...

By cuttie_pinky18 at 2008-01-04