New me New Beginning

I know you think that you broke my heart

but I knew your game right from the start
I saw your game and played it too..
so look here playa,
the jokes on you!

It is true... that when a door closes a window will surely open...

I've been into relationship for 4 years... and after that.. it all falls apart. It's been a year now and yes I can still feel the pain of being not with him, but aside from that.. everything seems to be easing up and I'm starting a new love. A love I can foresee that will surely last forever, a love that will grow day by day... it may sometimes fall but it will never fall apart, it will be like all other relationship that there's always a downfall. I hope if I'll be blessed with this love, then I would pray that he'll be finally the right one.

I have known Noel for a year now, he seems okay and very much polite. My family likes him and so I do, I wish to find love in him and I can feel that I already have... its just that, I'm not so sure if he loves me too, but I wish that he do.

He gave me his FIRST gift to me yesterday, it was a DVD which contains all his favorite music of all genre, as I log here I'm listening to it and honestly, I feel love in every song that I hear from it. Most of it are soft and sweet, some are boyish and others are Gothic, but this composes all his thoughts in music and I'll surely treasure every song in it.

As days go by, I'm beginning to like him... and, more and more I'm starting to love him... but then its hard to admit it to him, but if he'll ask me about it, I will never deny it.

So I pray up above, just one last sign... If he's really the right one, then he'll ask me out and drop by our house to ask my parents to court me and be his girlfriend. A rose will do, a kiss is too much to do, but a hug will surely say it all, that he do loves me too.

Hot and Cold

HOT: the peak of everything... when there is like no tomorrow...

COLD: the sad truth... nothing but all chilled... and down... to negative zero...

I wish I could turn back the time... in which we can be just at the warm temperature...

Start of Something New

Life is roller coaster, for it has a beginning and the end... In facing it,you must wear your seat belts and observe safety measures so that you will then fully enjoy your life.

But then, it's all about twist and turn... it has its own climax, the peak of where everything will eventually roll over and go down... so as my life, where I haven't gone into my peak, I already shouted stop at the peak of nowhere .. where I found myself upside down, looking at the sky and seeing nothing but just a clear blue and white shades of the clouds.

I guess, not everything that you see is true, not everything that you feel are all but joy and love. Like a roller coaster, I sat down and enjoy, but too afraid to see it fall.. and so when it happened I wasn't ready to take the impact of it. Wishing I could have picked the slow one...the one that has no loops and big turns, where i'll remain stable and enjoy the plain view of life... no twist and turns, no fast tracks, no hanging upside-down.

Life is a Journey, a one way ticket ride... You may buy a ticket over and over again.. but it will never be the same train and the same passengers you'll meet in every trip you take.

New Year, New Beginning

If someone says, that "the only constant thing in this world is change", I can say that they are right. For some reason that only few man accepts it within themselves and very rare that you see a man changed not because of love.

Nakakatuwang isipin na sa panahon ngayon, Kahit mahirap, bumaba man o tumaas ang presyo ng gasolina... Some other people do still see good things within it, though yung iba they just can't help na ipagtanggol ang karapatan nila, in where they know it is the only way to change what is already happening in our country. Ano pa ba ang babaguhin sa isang bagay na nabago na? I guess, it is much proper to say na lang na... "let's just learn from our mistakes, and make a better one". Parang cellphones, there are nontheless I think hundreds of it that are manufactured every now and then and us? we keep on buying those things kahit alam na natin na isa or dalawa lang na features ang dinagdag compare sa luma mong ginagamit na phone diba? or others may see it as a symbol of their social class, kung dati mas maliit mas sosyal at mahal... ngayon, mas malaki mas mahal na and mas in!. Oh diba, eh ang hindi na lang ata nagbabago ay yung itsura ng mag constalation sa langit, lalo na ang napaka sikat na "big dipper". (sa mga nagtatanong kung ano ang english ng tabo?...better think again and this time, look up ^_^)

Speaking of constalation, uuuyyyy can't help na tignan ang horoscope for this year?!, hahaha it is but normal for some of us to check on what's in this years forecast or hidden treasure for some zodiac concious people, but do always bare in mind that "life is all about choice" and "destiny don't stay last or forever"... dahil tama c Edward sa twilight "even you get to see your future, it is still uncertain to come", kaya nga may word na decision kasi we have the freedom to decide for our future, siyempre nandun ka na .. nakita mo na, the next thing you do is know how did you come to that point? or sometimes when one is very fortunate enough to see it, he tends to get lost or for some reasons.. they die young and loose hopes because they know its comming.

For some reason change is a bit harsh, but for me, my year had a good start... although not that good but at least I can say that I do still have my family and though the bond is not anymore that tight... I'm still holding on to my faith and gradually address myself to a major turning point of my life... about love, relationship, family and the like.

No one is perfect, thou practice makes perfect..still there is what we call change and is inevitable, so let it just pass through..on its own way somehow, change can do something really good. As another new year starts, let us not claim all the bad luck that we knew and written in our horoscope... just remember, if you know who you are and what you are really made of... new things and a big change won't be that bad as you think it is.

Have a life full of love this New year... Remember! "today is a gift, that is why it's called present"